Forgetting the past

So the day came and went,

Then night brought along darkness

As though it was how my night would be

Covered by a dark cloud

That doesn’t want to let go

Let me be!

When day came,

I said I’d start my day a fresh and forget yesterday’s sorrows

But all that did was left me feeling hollow

Pain and sad emotions were all that could follow

Even a smile is something I couldn’t borrow!

My face filled with frowns and low emotion

Felt like I’m about to hit depression

Like I’m in need of a counselling session

With my head filled with one question

Was hurting me what you wanted to leave as an impression?

So as the day passed, 

Sadness filled me

And by night time

Crying is what it had come to be

 I never cry,

If anything it’s an emotion if I’m to show, I have to try

But for me to shed tears as the whole day goes by,

All I can do is forgive you and let it fly,

And on that note, I will say my goodbye.

I have had to fight my inner dark side

Not to act or even respond was what I came to decide

Even though all I could think was how much I’ve cried

And all through the day my eyes I’ve dried

This far, to erase the past I’ve tried

But as we know,

The past happens as a heavy blow

Not to leave you low

But for somehow

Not to kill us but to make us stronger for better days to come.

For all its worth,

At one point I wanted to swear that you will fill my wrath,

But then I quickly realised,

It would be more like a prize

You seemed important in my life like a queen or king

But now, I figured for you it was more like nothing.

So on this day,

I wash my hands,

And I pray that you have a great one

Because best believe I’m going to lead my life as though its paradise!

 © Christine Kariuki

Make a difference!

Is it just me?

Doesn’t anyone else see?

All the evils that shouldn’t be

Killing, crime and deceit

That’s not what we are meant to be!

But who am I

To sit down, judge and cry

For 10 million other lies

 I’ll just let it float sky high

Just as it passes them by

Or maybe I should go on and give it a try.

Right here with us, not in outta space

Where we are:  indeed this place

One thing we need is at most peace

Not to be captives we should be released

From battles we do not want to fight

Feeling as though the chains are far too tight

Let’s get down from this traitor height

Then only shall we have a clearer sight.

Beyond measure, I’m sick and tired,

Of all politicians back home who should just be fired!

Ever seen how young innocent people get hired?

To fight, kill and seem like robots which are wired?

Women are always trying

To keep their children from crying

Remember when you are out here shopping and buying

There is someone out there starving and dying!

So as you cuddle for warmth and lie in bed tonight

There’s a boy who doesn’t want to be in the war or to have to fight

Someone is suffering and doesn’t have it so right

A woman who is battered constantly every single night

A sick and homeless child who still affords a smile so bright

A guy who has starved until he is now feather-weight

So wake up tomorrow and make a change it’s never too late!

Be generous and donate as little as a smile!

You won’t believe it but that smile travels more than miles.

Release the white doves,

And share all the love!

© Christine Kariuki 

Muziki

Listen to the music and let the beat

Be the sound that makes life so neat

Dance to it, get the rush and feel the heat

Such an amazing feeling, it is so sweet!

Bump your head to the beat, then some krumping

Music like crunk gives you the feeling of no stopping

Get on the floor, show them how it’s done and start stomping

Express yourself, go ahead pop, lock and drop it.

Let’s go hip hop, the hippy to the pop hop

Then jump, change it and don’t let it stop.

It’s not about you or me or our different tribes,

It’s about you and me using music to feel the vibe.

From the 70’s came a dance called break,

Nothing sexy like the Caribbean shake,

But music and dancing is what you make

Of a personal expression and it’s yours to take.

Ease your stress, let loose and stop whining,

Get on the floor, get with it and start dutty winin’

From the Caribbean island of Jamaica came a reggae theme,

Jumping up and down became the new thing

Then came days we switched it up and brought in ragga,

Dancehall moves then became the new swagger.

Remember when we all were Gully creeping,

Then Serani pulled through the new style of skipping

Sexy moves all over the place, everyone’s grinding,

Music brings us all out no shame, no hiding.

Music is global; from hip hop, genge to kwaito,

Go ahead and mingle through the argentine tango,

Let the rhythm flow through then just let go,

Like some punk, all you got to do is the pogo.

Techno, house all through to trance

Listen to Stromae and Kanye rapping Alors on danse

Make music your love, your new romance

You will only know if you give it a chance

Ever since I was born and through my upbringing,

I loved music coz it gave me an orgasmic feeling,

Such an amazing rush as though my head is spinning

So to this day, I’m with my music and that’ll keep me smiling

Even in church we worship through prayers and singing

Thing with music is that you choose what you prefer hearing

What you pick is unique and is worth sharing

I am me

Through music that lets me be

Expressing emotions and how I feel

Layer by layer I take to peel

Till I reach my inner core in which no one can see

It’s so rich and it’s nothing that you have to steal

It’s free, soothing and perfect to heal.

© Christine Kariuki 

Bright star of my life

Take a moment if you may,

And walk this journey with me today,

Even though millions of miles away,

There are a few things I’d like to say,

Better yet, I’ll kneel down and pray,

And wish her a happy mother’s day,

As we recall a moment, many million hours before today.

On this special day I’d like to remember,

One fine night in the middle of September,

Probably she was shouting as though a temper,

But not really just another moment like a previous November.

Memory may not serve me well,

But by the grace of God, I shall dwell,

In these thoughts that are Oh so swell,

That a bundle of joy from heaven had just fell.

My oh my, this lady has charm,

Even when angry she causes no harm,

Such a beautiful smile & a heart so warm,

Singing while pushing me on my pram,

Long journey she has been on since the days at the farm.

Growing up for me wasn’t easy,

Chronic illnesses tried to seize me,

But a sweet breeze blew by me,

In the form of a hug and add onto it a smiley,

Mummy said its ok she’s by me.

She took me to her beautiful island and called it our home,

This is the place I’ve always known,

The surroundings under which I have grown,

I created a playground running up and down,

It gave me so much joy, I never frowned,

Nothing ever lacked for me it’s as if she had sworn.

She is so nice and so humble,

She created a safe environment and there were never rambles,

And this I called Mummy’s bubble,

At times she’d be in pain but never even mumble,

Other times she’s be on her best game and beat us all in scrabble.

One fine day, she then introduced me to the kitchen,

I swear I couldn’t even grade her 10 over 10,

This would be nothing less than an understatement.

I admired her cooking talents,

She said she also started learning from her parents.

The aroma of the food was oh so good,

Watching how she did it-beside her is where I stood,

All I ever thought was wow, I love her food.

Then came a day when I decided,

I knew it all and never minded

What she would say and I even lied

That everything was ok but only coz I felt bind

By my silly promises that I made myself and indeed I was blinded.

Then came out of this,

And the feeling was quite bliss,

Sealed the dark chapter with a hug and a kiss,

Those are the days I’ll sure never miss.

Months ago on my own I needed to start life,

Leave for Uni and into the world to survive,

I felt like it was a stab by a knife,

But you have taught me the good ways through life,

And I believe I will survive,

And never give myself a situation that will end up with a stab by a knife,

With perseverance I shall thrive,

Find a way to create my own hive.

  

Consistent I am as if passing a motion,

Every morning and night as I go through devotion,

That wherever you may be:

You are brave and safe,

You are warm and under no harm,

You are uplifted and gifted,

For your magic is yours for having,

Your special mothers touch,

That heals wounds and seals the patch,

For me; no one can even come close to match.

Like you taught me,

Beautiful moments, beautiful friends and people

They are the worlds to have and to hold,

These names and moments I cherish and engrave in the stone,

That I have in my heart that I’ve never thrown.

But painful sorrows,

That leaves me feeling hollow,

I’ll write in the sand, let them wash away and never follow.

Mummy,

I love you dearly.

© Christine Kariuki 

Life

Ask yourself what is the world to me,

Is it just an ordinary place to be?

Think of the many places you haven’t seen,

Or even the wonderful ones that you have been.

Life is not just a day by day thing,

Or as meaningless as a summer fling,

With over millions of human beings,

Earth is the place your life is in.

Sometimes it’s not easy to let go,

Other times it’s just our ego,

Trying to be everyone’s hero,

Will burn you like a disc on Nero.

Make life as beautiful as the sunset,

Don’t wait for moments of regret,

Be thankful for all you have and accept,

That without you this world wouldn’t be perfect.

It’s priceless and can’t be bought by a dime,

So be careful and don’t commit a crime,

Don’t choose by race, nationality or tribe,

Because in the end all that counts is the smile,

That brings out the inner beauty from a mile,

Not for long but for a while,

I'll keep the memory of your smile,

In my heart in a secret file.

It’s not about the money or the people,

Driving around in your sexy limo,

Wearing the elegant tuxedo.

It’s more about meeting special people,

Those that make life feel as though you’re in that limo,

And looking like you own it in that tuxedo.

Listen, Materialistic luxuries will cost,

Like a simple polo shirt from Lacoste,

And for these you’ll be a good host,

But even when you want to boast,

In the end you’ll feel hollow-you’ll feel lost.

Make a choice and pick your preference,

Be a good example and become peoples reference,

Enter a room and fill it with love & joy coz of your presence.

And when it’s not shining in someone’s world let it be coz of your absence,

Know the real deal and life’s real essence.

 © Christine Kariuki